this single bachelor may not be one much longer -_-
ever have one of those friends/acquaintances that just never shut the hell up? well, I do. He/she will be unnamed, but sometimes I just get tired of hearing their crap and I honestly wish someone would slap the hell out of them. I care about them, sure, but sometimes it’s just too much. so shut the fuck up, and have a nice day.
when I look at you, I see her. And when I look at her, I see you.
These past few days down in socal have given me a few days to think, but it’s more like being down here reminds me of what I don’t have.
We exchange unsure smiles. Because we both know what could never be, and just as easily what could be. If you had to choose, who would it be?
who would it be indeed.
I’m sure many guys have been in the same kind of situations I’ve been finding myself in lately. Wanting a girlfriend, having the opportunity for one, and ending up with nothing. Friendship is a hard thing to ask for when there’s a girl you have an attraction towards. You want to keep your friendship with her, however, being friends with her means that you will eventually end up in the black hole of the ‘friend zone’. There’s no going back after you’re her “good friend,” because she will probably (we’re talking 99% here) won’t ever look your way and think, “I want to be with him.”
So what’s a guy to do? You want her, yet you don’t want to risk friendship. She thinks of you as a great guy, maybe has a tiny interest in you, but won’t show you anything unless you show her. Therefore, in order to gain more of a relationship with her, you have to risk everything your current relationship offers.
I’ve been pondering this question since I got back from China 3 months ago. I think she’s a great girl. Maybe not perfect, but come on, no one is perfect. Let’s throw out the signals and body language and mind games and all that. Simply put, I think she’s great. I’ve stopped looking for that ‘girl for me’ because I’ve realized in my travels through the girls I have met throughout the world that there are many, many girls like that out there. There comes a point where you just have to pick one and see how that goes. With her, I’ve been tempted many times to just throw myself out there and hope for the best, but that obviously hardly ever works. And yet, I’ve held back from anything because I appreciate her so much as a friend. We may not be super close or anything, but having her in my life regardless of my relationship with her is important to me.
I recently read a stranger’s own entry about her experience with something of this nature, and it compelled me to write my own. It may not be a total confession, but this is as much as I’m willing to put out there. My personal philosophy is that as long as you try, you have at the very least a .00000000000000001% chance of it working out. If you don’t try, you automatically have no chance. But sometimes, is it worth your effort to bother trying? haha, now I’m thinking like an economist.
Until then, I will keep doing what I do. It’s gotta work out, eventually right?
